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Cassie Wilkins's avatar

Magical and resonant as always. I especially feel you on the holiday, thing. Having travelled for so long people look at me like I have three heads when I tell them I don't really travel any more, but with all the other life stuff, my nervous system just can't handle it.

I definitely feel saturated, too. Though I always seem to end up working even when I promise myself I won't. It's hard when it's all so interconnected - like even the books I read are technically work.

It's so easy to cross the line.

Proud of you for facing the discomfort of going home, too. Even thinking about booking flights to go back right now fills me with dread. Ahh, good times.

Sending you and the foxes and cats lots of love x

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Sameh @ Mayhem Living's avatar

Great reminders Sabrina. Some times taking away makes whatever remains that much better. Eid mubarak!

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Sabrina Ahmed's avatar

Eid mubarak Sameh! It really does. I know I'll come back to things. But it helps to miss them at times too.

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Sieran Lane's avatar

Yes, I'm feeling this too. Now I don't feel that much guilt and shame compared to before. It's mostly fear and anxiety about what I will do when / if my parents can't support me anymore. But I recognize that this anxiety and panic only makes me more stuck and unable to move. Sounds like I also need to back off and do the minimum for now!

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Sabrina Ahmed's avatar

That's it Sieran! We put so much pressure on ourselves to achieve, we stress ourselves into being frozen in fear.

It becomes so all or nothing so we lose our curious and experimental mindset.

See how it feels to ease up a bit. Totally get the fear but we need to take care of ourselves to be sustainable.

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Thérèse Ralston's avatar

Yep, we need to sustain our energy, our time, our positive emotions.

I agree, we need to sustain us.

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Sabrina Ahmed's avatar

So true Therese.

We can't blindly go on without stepping back to see if we're going in the right direction.

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Thérèse Ralston's avatar

And sometimes the way forward, to get out of our entanglements is clouding with mists and a blanket of fog.

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Sabrina Ahmed's avatar

How very evocative Therese

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Karina's avatar

Dear Sabrina I resonate with your words. Our way of dealing with trauma is doing more, finding solutions, learning another modality and another, metaphorically speaking running running until we can t do it anymore. We don t do slow, stillness is not on our radar too afraid of our own thoughts, feelings, emotions. We lock them in boxes and hide the key. Just a short message saying … I hear you!

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Sabrina Ahmed's avatar

Thanks Karina, and you've so got it!

Even if we know slowing down would help, the avoidance of busyness protects us.

We are more resilient than we realise.

Facing the hard stuff has already been done - we survived so we need quiet to process it all. Hugs x

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